LORI Vallow’s only surviving child says a part of him will be lost forever after the murder of his two younger siblings, who were found buried in shallow graves two years ago today.
Tylee Ryan, 16, and Joshua “JJ” Vallow, 7, were found dead on June 9, 2020 near a fire pit in the backyard of a home owned by Lori Vallow’s husband, Doomsday writer, Chad Daybell.
The tragic discovery in Salem, Idaho, ended a nine-month investigation to find the two children, both of whom disappeared weeks apart in September 2019.
Lori had long maintained to authorities and other family members that Tylee and JJ were safe and living with relatives in Arizona, although no trace of the couple could be found.
Police later claimed that Lori and Chad had the two children murdered as part of a depraved ritual after apparently becoming convinced that the couple was possessed by evil spirits.
Two years later, Tylee and JJ’s older brother Colby Ryan, 26, told the US Sun in an emotional interview that not a day goes by that he doesn’t think about his murdered siblings
“I miss her all the time,” said Colby, a father of two. “I wish they were here to experience my family and I wish we could just go back to a place where we had so much fun all the time.
“I just miss her presence; I miss being in the house with them, having fun with them and just sharing our lives together.”
In the months before his siblings were found dead, Colby had asked Lori for information about where they were following their arrest in February 2020, but was shockingly told the same thing each time: “All will be revealed soon.”
Four months after visiting his mother behind bars, the horrific truth of Lori’s plan was set to be revealed with a heartbreaking ending after Chad Daybell’s Salem, Idaho home was searched.
In the backyard of the property, police found two human remains buried in shallow graves, which were soon confirmed to belong to Tylee and JJ.
Tylee’s remains had been dismembered and cremated, while JJ was found buried in his red pajamas and wrapped in plastic bags with his mouth, arms and wrists covered with duct tape.
Chad Daybell was taken into custody the same day and both he and Lori were later indicted by a grand jury on a range of charges related to the children’s deaths, including first-degree murder and conspiracy to commit murder.
Lori’s devoted brother, Alex Cox, was also believed to be involved in her murders. However, he evaded charges after he died suddenly in December 2019 of allegedly “natural causes” triggered by high blood pressure and blood clots in his lungs.
Investigators believe Cox’s two children were killed on orders from Vallow and Daybell, who were allegedly convinced that two children were possessed by “dark spirits” and therefore needed to be purified.
“LIFE IN A CEMETERY”
It was devastating for Colby to learn of the horrific way his siblings’ lives ended. Coming to terms with the fact that members of his own family were supposedly responsible was even harder.
“In those moments I was just so angry. i was so hurt I felt uncomfortable. I had a bad stomach the whole time and it was just this weight on me,” he said.
In this state of overwhelming anger and hurt, Colby said he was soon consumed by dark thoughts, including a desire to exact murderous revenge on his mother and Chad.
But over time, after leaning heavily on his faith, Colby said he learned to let go of the anger and reluctantly accept the outcome of the tragedy so he could try to move on with his life.
“I couldn’t just live in the past, no matter how hard it was to let go,” Colby said.
“I’ve always felt like I live in this graveyard and I’m not going anywhere. I feel like a lot of people can get stuck at this stage and it’s just miserable.
“You can’t live a full life because you’re always thinking about the past.
“So I love her and miss her all the time. But I also have to accept that they are not here.
Colby added: “Full disclosure, it’s incredibly difficult to have trauma head-on, but it’s worth it when you come out the other side – you’re healed and you have an opportunity to tell your story, and that can to other people.” help.
“But the anger was probably the most difficult thing to overcome.”
A ‘PIECE LOST FOREVER’
Colby recently published a self-published book, The God Over Odds, in which he talks about his faith and how turning to God has helped him overcome the traumas of his childhood and beyond.
While he insists he’s now overcome his feelings of resentment and anger at Mom — having even taken the previously unimaginable step of forgiving her last year — Colby says he recognizes a piece of him is missing lost forever with the deaths of Tylee and JJ.
“A part of me was attached to them,” he explained. “I’m still her brother, they’re still my siblings, but they’re not here.
“So that part of me was broken, that was shattered and sadly it will never be put back together.
“[But] It’s almost like I’ve been refined and repurposed from before. So when I put myself back together, I was a different person.
“I’m not even close to the same person who experienced these things because it’s almost impossible to go through something traumatic and come back the same way when a part of you that was undressed is gone now.”
I just miss her presence; I miss being in the house with them, having fun with them and just sharing our lives together.”
For now, Colby is focused on making something good out of tragedy and seeks to continue his siblings’ legacy in a positive light, helping to guide others through the throes of crisis and trauma.
“It’s crazy to see old photos of them now and they’re not here,” Colby added. “But again it comes down to having to accept it, which is the hardest part.
“I believe there is a chance to see them again in heaven and to have a relationship with them again.
“But the part of me that was connected to them is gone.
“Old Colby is definitely gone.”
Impending doomsday attempt
Lori Vallow and Chad Daybell are both still awaiting trial for the murders of Tylee, JJ and Daybell’s late wife Tammy, who died under mysterious circumstances in October 2019.
Lori’s trial was scheduled to begin this October, but last month a judge decided to delay the trial by 90 days to coincide with the trial of Chad Daybell on Jan. 9, 2023.
Vallow and Daybell have both pleaded not guilty and face the death penalty if convicted.
Despite Lori’s claims of innocence, Colby says he has no doubt that she is “100%” responsible for everything accused of her.
“My mom knew exactly what was going on,” Colby said. “As a parent, you are responsible for the safety of your children, especially when they are minors. She was responsible for her children. She was responsible for what happened.
“And I know she was part of it,” he claimed. “And saying that hurts a lot.”
Colby said that while he has no desire to have any relationship with his mother, he admitted it’s still difficult to hear that she could potentially be sentenced to death.
“It’s hard to hear that they would do that to my mom,” he said, “but again, it’s out of my hands and always has been.”
Colb typically refrains from following coverage of his mother’s trial, once again accepting that her fate is not in his hands.
Reliving the harrowing details of his siblings’ deaths will also not change the fact that they are no longer here, he said.
“I gave up the fact that no matter what, it’s not going to change anything,” Colby said.
“So I know they’re in prison, I know they can’t hurt anyone and that’s the best I can ask for.”
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