TEEN Mom star Amber Portwood has admitted that she “likes who she is” after revealing she attempted suicide at the age of 11.
Reality star, 31 years old, revealed Explosive details of her childhood in which she also used drugs at the age of 9 and joined a gang at the age of 15.
Following the shocking revelations, the mother-of-two took to Instagram to reassure her fans that she is heading towards a brighter future.
She posted a quote that read, “I like the person I’m becoming. Very much.”
Alongside the post, she wrote: “It’s not a sprint 🏃🏻♀️ it’s a marathon! #Takeitslow #gothedistance #selflove #teenmomog #amberportwood.”
Amber was flooded with messages of support and praising the star for how far she’s come.
One person wrote: “Yes Daughter!!!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🔥🔥 Stay there amber! Focus on yourself to continue to be a mother to your kids! You have something this and so many supporters here!! ❤️”
Another posted: “So happy for you Amber!!! Be strong girl 🥰.”
A third commented: “I like the person you’re becoming. And who you are will never define you ❤️ you can always get better. I’m so proud of your growth. Seeing you is an inspiration ❤️.”
Amber candidly delves into her mental illness, her struggle with addiction, and more compliance with laws in the tome full of jam.
“I first tried to kill myself when I was 11 years old,” she wrote, before adding that she sometimes thinks – when she tries to kill herself – she is trying to be with her dead sister in a way. traumatized by Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.
But the reality star candidly reflected: “The truth is I don’t know why I did it; I’m probably too young to know.”
“I woke up on the floor. I don’t know how much time has passed, but I’m in terrible pain. My side and neck hurt very badly.”
“I just felt like I didn’t want to live anymore. When I look back now, it was clear that I was mentally ill.
“At that time, I felt very heavy and like a small child with no wisdom of his age and was desperately searching for a solution to the problem, hanging suicide seemed the only way out. I just want the pain to stop.”
The MTV star also shared that she became addicted to drugs when she was 9 years old.
USE OF DRUG AT 9 YEARS old
“Self-medication is very common in the world of the mentally ill. When I was nine years old, I tried my first opiate and it was the best feeling in the world.
“All the dark thoughts that were floating around in my brain suddenly went quiet. My first pill was a quarter of OxyContin. After that, I used drugs on a fairly regular basis during my teenage years.”
Amber said she suddenly had new friends and drugs made her less shy and worried.
When she was in middle school, she confessed: “My friends and I broke my parents’ medicine cabinet and took pills a few times a week to make our school days more enjoyable.”
The Teen Mom star admits her addiction continues to grow in a disturbing and very real way.
“Unbeknownst to me at the time, taking a few pills here and there to boost my confidence would eventually turn into a complete addiction to opioids.”
MTV would bring Dr. Drew Pinsky to speak with various show actors over the years, and one conversation he had with Amber helped her stand out.
Drew told Amber he believes her drug habit is becoming an issue for her.
“Years later, it was Dr. Drew Pinsky, who was walking down the street with me in NYC at our first season reunion, who told me he was concerned that I had become addicted to prescription drugs. I was socked.
https://www.the-sun.com/entertainment/4611617/teen-mom-amber-portwood-instagram-attempted-suicide-drugs/ Teen mom Amber Portwood says she ‘likes who she’s becoming’ after revealing she tried to commit suicide at 11 and used drugs at 9